(originally posted on 24 July 2019)
Hi! Welcome to Be the Sunshinee! A few days ago I posted a photo on IG and wrote a caption all about change- and how this year has taught me to embrace change in every season.
I just wanted to elaborate on what I wrote in my caption because it’s been sitting on my heart.
C H A N G E.
I am no stranger to change. Ask any military child and they’ll tell you change is in their DNA. And while I am no different, I also struggle with change A LOT. It has never ever come easy for me.
Especially as I’ve gotten older. I think, actually I know, I started to develop this idea of what I wanted my life to be, what I wanted it to look like. I wanted to be married by this time and having my first child at that time, and buying a house before all of that, and blah blah blah. And while I’m not saying it’s bad to have goals, dreams, or aspirations AT ALL I think it’s vital to leave yourself wiggle room. I’m saying have those goals, and work towards them everyday but also realize that LIFE happens and a lot of the time, life’s timeline doesn’t match up with our own. And that’s okay. Let me repeat that, THAT’S OKAY.
Let me start by sharing a quote I’ve loved for years.
What if I told you 10 years from now your life would be exactly the same? I doubt you’d be happy. So, why are you so afraid of change?
Let that sink in and resonate with you. How fucking true is that?!
Like I talked about in my IG caption, a year ago I NEVER would have imaged my life as it is now. I never ever would have thought I’d find the courage to leave an unhappy relationship. I never thought I would get out of my work funk and fall back in love with my job. I absolutely never thought I would have a roommate who also doubles as my best fucking friend who triples as my co worker. I never would’ve thought I would step out of my comfort zone to try a new gym- one that doesn’t make me totally dread a workout. I never thought I’d be going to Europe with Ellie. I never would’ve thought I would get orders to Japan and then DENIE THEM. And never ever would I have imagined I’d get tasked to deploy and be so fucking excited and grateful for that. Like SO many things have changed and every single one of them has been for the better. All these huge changes have been such blessings and a year ago none of these things were present in my life, none of these opportunities were a reality.
On the flip side, it’s crazy to look back to what my life was a year ago from now and how different it was. Like they say;
Day by day nothing seems to change. But look back over the last year and everything is different.
Anyway, the point of that is that my life has been full of nothing BUT change over the last 7 months and while typically that would’ve scared the shit out of me (and don’t let me fool you, I’m still scared of change) it has been the BEST thing for me. Like, I am so incredibly happy and utterly grateful for everything and everybody in my life right now. Things have fallen into place so perfectly and my life is completely different from what I thought I wanted. I cannot wait to look back a year from now a reflect on all the growth I know is coming.
If you are in a season of change I encourage you to welcome it will an open mind and open arms. Things may not seems okay in this moment, but they will be. THEY WILL BE. Whatever it is that you’re going through, it will work itself out in perfect timing. You are exactly where you are meant to be in this moment- enjoy that. Whether it’s a good moment or a bad moment, it won’t last forever. So soak it in as much as you can. Appreciate the good, learn from the bad, grow in gratitude, and find something to smile about everyday. You got this.
Change is scary, but scary does not equal bad.