(originally posted on 15 July 2019)
Hi! Welcome to Be the Sunshinee!
I’m so excited to be writing a new post today and sharing with you something I’ve come to realize over the last few months.
H A P P I N E S S.
I talk about happiness all the time, I love the power of positivity, and firmly believe the practice of daily gratitude can allow you to live your absolute happiest life.
As most of you know, I’ve been going through some big life changes recently and it has been the best learning and growing experience for me. But more than anything, it’s allowed me to realize how happy I finally am and how happy I hadn’t been in YEARS. Now, let me say a little disclaimer; I’m not saying over the last few years that I wasn’t happy at all because that would just straight up be a damn lie. But there are far too many times where I was unhappy more than I was happy. Truly genuinely happy.
And I’ve come to this realization because I was thinking the other morning, I can’t remember the last time I had this many consistent and consecutive days in a row that I was happy for absolutely no reason at all. And that is my favorite kind of happiness. The kind that just sneaks in at the most random time of day and you don’t even realize it’s there until your walking down the hallway at 230 in the afternoon smiling like an idiot and you don’t have the slightest clue why.
Wait, let me back track, I CAN remember the last time I was this kind of happy- the year of 2014. 5 fucking years ago. That is totally unacceptable.
One of my favorite quotes of all time is by an artist I love, Mod Sun. It goes;
“I live like happiness is currency therefore I am rich.”
And yall, based on that quote ya girl is a motherfuckin BILLIONAIRE.
It all started with one single decision, choosing to end the relationship I was in. Since I found the courage to take that step and regain control of my life so many fucking incredible opportunities have fallen into my lap. So many old friends have reentered my life. So many new friendships have been built. I am trying to the best of my ability to really take in each day and enjoy each moment over the next year because next spring/summer is going to bring even more crazy huge changes and I will be pushed out of my comfort zone more than I ever have in my entire life- I’m sure there will be more to come about that later. I’m really just trying to soak in every good thing in my life, appreciate the “bad things” and let them teach me new lessons. Focus on ME, MY HAPPINESS, and the things I want to do. This is about to be the year of Marisa Eihusen.
I just really wanted to write this post today because gratitude was sitting on my heart and I wanted to thank the universe for putting me in this place in my life, because it feels so damn good to be here. For the first time in a long time I’m not worried or scared about the future. I’m really focusing on zoning in on the today, on the now, and asking myself “what can I do in this moment to benefit me tomorrow” without worrying about the next 6 months of my life. I have had to learn to let go fo the life I thought I wanted and needed and open my mind to the possibilities and ideas that I have no idea what I want or need. I have no idea what my life is going to look like in 5 months let alone in 5 years and that is okay. For the first time in a long time that thought does not scare me. It lights a fire within my soul and makes me excited as hell. I hope if you’re feeling lost or like you’re having behind in life remember- you are exactly where you’re supposed to be learning the necessary lessons needed. Remember to find joy in the now even if you’re not where you want to be- find gratitude in the idea that you get the opportunity to grow to get where you want to be. And never forget, your happiness lies in your hands. So start doing thinks and making decisions that make you fucking happy.