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How is Your Heart??

(originally posted on 13 August 2017)

 I went to church this morning and I am so thankful that I did. I got up, got ready, and was about to walk out the door when I thought to myself, “maybe I should just stay home today” but I walked out the door and drove away anyway. Even on the way to church I thought to myself, “maybe I’ll just turn around and head back home…” but I didn’t. And thank goodness I didn’t.

This can kind of correlate with the blog I posted before this one, “Self-confidence” (btw I got so much POSITIVE feedback from that post so thank you to everybody who took the time to read it, share it on Facebook, and let me know your thoughts. It gave me a boost of confidence in myself and sparked a new fire inside of me. So thank you, thank you, thank you!)

Today’s message was about the three terrors christians will never have to face.

  1. You will never have to face your sin alone.

  2. You will never face the wrath of God.

  3. You will never meet anybody who must face the wrath of God.

I want to talk about the first point, you will never face sin alone, as well as some things from a message I heard at church on the 26th of February.

I always take my bible and my “bible journal” with me any time I go to church. I am a person of journals, I have wayyy too many. So of course I have one for church too. I just like to jot down the message from that Sunday morning, any thoughts I have about the message, and how it pertains to my life.

26 Feb 2017 (I’m just going to share what I wrote in my bible journal)

People look at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart. – 1 Samuel 16:7

  • Appearance does not impress God

Something that has been on my mind recently— if I were to die today, would I be okay with the way I left things with the people I love & what would people say/ think about me? What impression would I leave behind?

  • Job performance

  • Character

  • Quality of your soul

“Victim of circumstance” // It just so happens?

  • NO! When bad things happen we have no one to blame but ourselves!

God does not care how we look, how is our heart?

16 July 2017

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. – 1 John 1:9

  • Lately in my life I have been dealing w my ability (or inability) to forgive. But how do I do it?

Three terrors christians will never face.

  • Jesus has given us a fast pass

1. You will never face your sin alone.

  • It’s like a new pair of ABU’s (military uniform) —> a new pair looks a lot different than yours, because yours are old. Yours have grown to your body.

    • Maybe sin had become grown into your skin

    • Maybe you have grown accustom to sin

  • Temptation is like bait on a hook…

    • You see it and think, “Man that looks good!” even though you KNOW there’s a hook!

    • THAT is temptation

  • Jesus has seen and been exposed to every temptation —> and he has overcome “I know, because I’ve been there”

  • When you go to someone for advice, don’t you want to turn to someone who has started and finished? Jesus knows what it’s like because he’s been there. And he has overcome.

  • And if you do give into temptation, if you do fail HE WILL STILL BE THERE, He still loves you, and He will never turn his back on you or hang his head in disgust

Let’s back track to the message from February. How is your heart?

This is something I have found myself focusing on a lot this year. Wanting to be the very best version of myself, character wise. I wanted to make sure the person I was, was somebody I could be proud of. If someone were to talk about me or describe me, they would only have good things to say. You know when someone passes away and everybody (even people who hardly knew the one who passed) says all these wonderful things about how they were the kindest person they knew, and they lit up any room they walked into, or they were always happy and smiling, just being around them made you feel better too? I want to embody all of those characters so whenever I do pass, people can say all of those things and they can be true and genuine. I say this post can relate to my previous post because it’s not whats on the outside that counts, its whats on the inside. It doesn’t matter if you have the prettiest hair, or the hottest body, or the best make up skills in the country; if your heart is ugly, then what are you offering to the world? And I think that is where your self-confidence needs to derive from. I’m not naive, I know people all wants to look their best selves too (and there is nothing wrong with that) but first and foremost, look internally. Do you like what you see? Are you happy with who you are? And the end of the day, when you’ve taken off all your make up and your hair is sapping wet and you’re wearing your dad’s old sweatpants with an XXXL t-shirt that just one day appeared in your PJ drawer, you still have to be able to love yourself. You should love every part of you because you were made perfectly. You have to learn to love your under eye circles and the redness that accompanies your skin tone. You have to love your natural hair and your body in your most bummy clothes. And I think that starts from the inside out. It is so much easier to love yourself when you love who you are. Whether you are religious or not, whether you believe in God or not, you have to love your insides to love your outside.

And for those of you who are religious I think it is so magnificent to have somebody who loves you for all of eternity, and unconditionally no matter what you look like. Appearance does not impress God. God does not care how you look, how is your heart? You’ve got someone who know the dirtiest and ugliest and horrible secrets you hold within, and loves you anyway. He never judges you, He never turns his back, He always forgives. How incredibly spectacular is that?

It wasn’t until today, when I was sitting in church rereading my older entries when it hit me. I felt this “thing” in my chest, a feeling I can’t even describe. A voice just shouting in my head, “THIS IS WHAT YOU’VE BEEN NEEDING GIRL. This is the only person you have to face. It doesn’t matter what anybody else says about you, it doesn’t matter what anybody else thinks about you, it doesn’t matter if someone likes you or not.” Because Jesus loves you. He has loved you and He will love you for all of your days and THEN SOME!

Let’s talk about sin. We all do it. Every single day, we sin. This world is full of sin. There is sin in ever corner, it’s on every street, and it’s in every home. Even the most christian christians sins daily. And you have someone who has died to forgive you of EVERY sin you execute. All you have to do is turn to him and ask for his forgiveness. He doesn’t say, “well, let me think about it. I’ll get back to you in a few days” NO! He simply forgives you. You will never have to face your sin alone. Another piece from my bible journal is this, “next time you are waiting in the line of misery or bitterness or anxiety —> pull out the fast pass Jesus has given you. And if you do sin, don’t go to the back of the line, Jesus still wants to see you.” Jesus forgives us of all of our sins. We just have to ask Him, invite Him into our lives and He is there.

How cool is that? That is like the ultimate bestfriend. Jesus will never falter.

Something about that concept, thinking about how amazing that is. It just ignites something in me. I grew up in a moderately christian home. We occasionally went to church but often times found that once we moved it took far too long to find a church we liked, and when we did it was moving time again. I had a children’s picture bible when I was a kid and I went to VBS (vacation bible school) when I was in middle school. I was a part of a youth group in 6th grade, but all of that was mostly for the social aspect. I’ve never been one super devoted to any particular faith. I didn’t really pay any mind to religion in highschool until my senior year when I read a quote that said, “Did God create man, or did man create God?” And since then I found myself really struggling to believe in Him. And then I discovered The Law of Attraction and I dove head first into that, which I still use in my life today. And it wasn’t until the death of my Aunt Dee (who was a Christ follower) that I began to wonder again, about God and religion. I talked about it with my mom and with Andrew. I bought a bible and started going to church as often as I could. But then life happened, as it always does, and I slowly skipped a Sunday which turned into two which turned into me not attending at all. Now I found myself not only wondering again, but also craving the truth. Craving to believe. And who knows, I change my mind as quickly as the weather changes so I may feel differently a few weeks from now. I just wanted to share where I currently stand. This may be the beginning of an extraordinary journey for myself and I want to document everything along the way.

And whether you’re a Christ follower or not, I hope you gained something useful from reading this post. I hope at least you want to look in the mirror and ask yourself, “How is my heart?”

The Half-Way Mark!

Self-Confidence Part 1 + 2.